Just call me Ms. Cheerleader! I’ve been cheering on all those who are participating in the Read-a-Thon and having a blast! I wish I was reading with everyone, but as it happens, I had to take a little test today.
Unfortunately, I have to report that I have to take the test over again. I needed 500 points and only got 460 points. The funny thing is that I am not mad. I am embarrassed for others who give me their condolences because I know I do not deserve them. I knew I needed another week of study but unfortunately did not realize it until after the window of opportunity for changing my testing appointment. The testing window is open until Halloween. I’ve already registered again but need to get it approved by the organization and pray that the testing facility still has spots available some time this week. Otherwise, I can not take the test again until January, and I really do not know if I have the motivation to do that. So, wish me luck that I can get another test scheduled this week.
Here’s my dilemma – I made a big deal about undertaking this certification process. My company has paid for the study materials and all of the tests. My boss thoroughly backs me in taking this test and is the type of person who truly believes that you should finish what you started. I respect my boss, and I feel that if I backed down now, it would be a little like disappointing my father. However, I question why I started this process in the first place. The idea was to make me more marketable in the business world and try to set myself apart from the thousands of accountants out there with more experience than me. I always finish what I started, but on this one thing, my will to do so is all but gone. I cannot tell if I feel this way because I am completely burnt out with studying all the time and having these deadlines constantly hanging over me. Would I feel differently if I did not have my blog and was not receiving review copies of books? Would I still want to take the tests? I have no idea anymore. My plan is to try to retake the exam this week, while everything is still fresh in my mind. No matter what happens with the retest, I am definitely taking the entire month of November off. If I pass the second exam this week, I am also taking December off and will reevaluate in January. If I do not pass it, I guess I will cross that bridge if I come to it.
My game plan for this week is to study…after the weekend. I am going to catch up on Google Reader, spend time with my family and lounge around. I am going to continue to study next week, but I am going to continue to stay connected on the Internet. No more blogging bans – it is not worth it in the end because I felt like I was missing a part of me the entire week. I will need spirit fingers and good vibes to help the stars align to let me take the test again some time this week. I will need every good thought to change the one or two I missed so that I can pass this damn thing. And I will need support, advice and a place to help me figure out what I am going to do.
Carol – I really enjoyed cheering. And thank you for cheering me on! I love the blogging community for how gracious every one is!
Thanks, Marie! I was able to get my testing window opened back up and have rescheduled the test for this Friday. I'll be studying all week long!!
Thanks so much for you're cheering during the read-a-thon.
I know exams can be tough. Hang in there.
I understand your pain, taking securities exams a few years ago just really dragged life down for me. And once I succeeded (after one fail) and gained two different licenses? What did I do?
I moved on into a different field. Kills me. Now if by sheer nightmare I wanted to get back into that area, I would have to start all over again, and ya know what… no thanks.
I do hope you get your window, I know that spending your time till January will bite the big one.
But if you do have to wait until January, then go ahead and finish what you started. You won't like yourself if you didn't.
Good luck!
Savvy Working Girl – I'm actually taking the CMA exam, but it appears to be just as intense. I appreciate your words of encouragement more than you will ever know. I've never quit anything yet, so I doubt I will do so this time around. Exhaustion makes it SO tempting, but I will not do so.
eMily – You are very welcome and congratulations on finishing!!
Thanks, Stephanie! The thought of taking more practice tests really has me close to tears though. So we shall see what happens tomorrow.
As for blogging, it's actually a little scary just how fun this is. And now that I've started a newsletter at work, I'm writing even more. I really need to start researching writing jobs.
Laurel – I'll be doing some soul searching over the next two months. We will have to see how the rescheduling go tomorrow.
Thanks, Nicole! And congratulations on finishing the read-a-thon!
Thanks, Stacy! We shall see…
Thanks, Vishy! How did you do during the read-a-thon?
Thanks, Care! We're supposed to be cheering you rather than the other way around!
Carrie – Not a problem! I hope you had fun!!
I can commiserate with your CPA exam experience; I found the entire process to be a hellish nightmare. I took the exam back in the day when you sat for all four parts over a two day period. It took me two years and four tries before I finally passed all four sections. I have since discovered many CPA’s did not pass the exam on the first try. I highly recommend taking some time off between exams to regroup; you have to give yourself a break from all the stress. Was it worth all the pain? Absolutely, becoming a CPA has given me credibility and opened doors that previously would not have been available. As much as I wanted to throw those review books in the garbage I kept studying. Good Luck Michele, you can do it. You’re so close.
Thank you for cheering me on yesterday!
Good luck with getting into another test. Sometimes, when you spend so much time on something, it takes away the importance of it. It's my gut reaction that you are just completely burnt on testing/studying. I would be if I was in your shoes.
I'm sure you'll pass it, if you get to take it next week.
Weird how blogging has gotten under your skin?? I don't think so. I knew you would enjoy it!
Yes, sometimes when we're feeling reluctant to pursue a course of action and we continue because we vowed to do so…well, like you said, that's the time to look inside and reassess everything. Put things in perspective.
Good luck with your test and thanks for stopping by to cheer me on! Hope you're having fun!
Tests are overrated 🙂 You'll get it next time.
Thanks for stopping by and cheering me!
All the best for your test! I am sure you will be able to pass it this week!
CHEERS Michelle! CHEERING you on to pass that test with flying colors! 🙂
Thanks so much for stopping by to cheer me on!