Tonight, I sat through my youngest’s preschool graduation. Tomorrow, I take her to her first day of kindergarten. What crossed my mind tonight as I watched her was not so much that I feel old now that my baby is school-age. It’s how fast these five years have gone and how much I’ve changed since then, happily for the better. Five years ago, I entered the online world via my online book club. I was just starting my graduate studies, and I was in a low-paying, boring, no-thought-required job through the Department of Army.
Now, I have my MBA. I’m firmly entrenched in the online world through my blog, Facebook, Twitter, Linked-In and my online book club. I have a good job, with a boss who supports me and has faith in me and is willing to give me a chance to fulfill my potential. More importantly, I have this ray of sunshine that is my daughter. She’s beautiful, absolutely charming, sincere, caring, intelligent – more than I deserve. She always has a hug and kiss and just wants everyone to be happy. She’s not afraid of being silly and loves to laugh. And what a laugh! Complete and utter belly laugh that is so infectious, it makes my day to hear it. And she’s remained so innocent, in spite of, or maybe because of, her older brother. I dread this loss of innocence that I know will beginning when she steps on that big yellow school bus tomorrow. I don’t want her to lose that innocence, that tender heart, that laugh.
So, as I watch her embark on this latest of life’s adventures, I’m of two hearts – one that is so excited for her and can’t wait to see what she does with life and the other that is just a bit heartbroken that I have to entrust this joy of my life to others and hope that they don’t ruin what is truly precious in my daughter.
It’s going to be an interesting year.